Essays

Gestation of Ideas: On Vertical Writing and Living

By posted at 6:00 am on November 27, 2014 16

vert

Tobias Wolff said that before Andre Dubus became his friend, “he was one of my masters, in the unwitting way that writers sometimes serve as masters to others.” Wolff thought Dubus was the rare writer whose prose “was at the same time intensely compassionate and morally responsible,” and “became not only an admirer but a student of Dubus’s stories.”

coverI also remain an admirer and student of Dubus’s fiction, from the haunting “A Father’s Story” (pdf) to the terse “Leslie in California,” but have recently been drawn to his essays. One piece in particular, “The Habit of Writing,” appeared in On Writing Short Stories, an anthology edited by my undergraduate mentor, Tom Bailey. The essay is otherwise difficult to find, but is the most refined presentation of Dubus’s fictional process.

“I gestate: for months, often for years,” he begins. Like Gerard Manley Hopkins in “To R.B.,” Dubus likens ideas to a form of pregnancy, a self within the self. Stories “grow” inside him. Like children, stories are acts of love. Both are to be cared for, but sooner or later, must be released into the world to live of their own accord.

Dubus writes an idea in a notebook, and then leaves it alone: “I try never to think about where a story will go.” Planning is an act of control, and “I will kill the story by controlling it; I work to surrender.” Ever the Roman Catholic, Dubus first sees “characters’ souls.” Faces appear next, and that “is all I need, for most of my ideas are situations, and many of them are questions.” Only when Dubus sees the first two scenes is a story “ready for me to receive it.” Then he writes.

coverIt was not always that way. Dubus used to plan the plots of stories, but those stories were “dead long before I put the final period on the page.” He needed to complete multiple drafts for stories to “tell me what they were.” A novella, Adultery, “took seven drafts, four hundred typed pages…to get the final sixty pages,” a method that “seems foolish now.” Hours spent on discarded pages were replaced with gestation of idea.

Dubus changed his method while writing a story, “Anna.” The narrative was to be told from her point of view, but Dubus struggled to “become her.” He attempted a different approach:

“At my desk next morning I held my pen and hunched my shoulders and leaned my head down, physically trying to look more deeply into the page of the notebook. I did this for only a moment before writing, as a batter takes practice swings while he waits in the on-deck circle. In that moment I began what I call vertical writing, rather than horizontal. I had never before thought in these terms. But for years I had been writing horizontally, trying to move forward (those five pages); now I would try to move down, as deeply as I could.”

Horizontal writing is focused on amassing pages and words. When Dubus wrote horizontally, he wrote convinced that fiction was created through aggregation. Vertical writing, in contrast, values depth over breadth. Stories are written when they are ready to be written; they are not forced into existence by planning or excessive drafting. Horizontal writing seeks to move across the page; vertical writing seeks to dig into the page, to value the building of character and authenticity over the telegraphing of plot. The folly of horizontal writing is that it convinces writers that fiction writing operates on a production model. If they simply sit at the desk and pound out page after page, the story will come. That might be true, but Dubus argues that such forced work creates a lot of “false” fiction. Curiously enough, by seeking to undermine the stereotype that writing is the result of inspiration, writers have fallen for the other, no less romantic opposite: that writing is factory work, and daily devotion is rewarded with final drafts. Both approaches are magical thinking. Vertical writing is no less work, but it is better work, work at the right time. It requires patience in the willingness to wait for a story to feel ready to be written, as well as the attention and focus necessary to inhabit the story once gestated.

Dubus became Anna through her senses. Rather than forcing Anna to do something, Dubus followed her, and the story built so that after one, slow draft, it was finished. If Dubus had written “Anna” according to his old, horizontal method, the story would have taken many drafts. It would have taken time. But we don’t have much time. I don’t have much time. I have been a schoolteacher for the past decade. I drive an hour to work. Between 7:20 and 2:21, I teach literature and creative writing. I drive another hour home, where I am blessed to be a father and husband. We play in the basement, where my wife pantomimes elaborate scenes for our 19-month-old twin daughters. The girls climb on me and pat my beard and laugh. We read books, we eat dinner. Diapers are changed. Diaper ointment is applied. Cries evolve into laughs, which, lately, have trailed off into the refrain of “Old MacDonald.” My wife and I then put the girls to bed. Some bedtimes are miraculously smooth and silent, while other bedtimes are like plays by Eugène Ionesco.

At some point in the night, I sit at my desk, and do what Dubus suggested. I write vertically. I have never been a writer with a lot of time to write. I am thankful for that. I am not sure what would happen if I had hours to work. Not being able to write makes me want to write very badly. It makes me not want to squander the moments when I sit with a story. This is a necessary tension. I am not a writer first. I have a family, and without them I would have little reason to want to write — or to do anything else. My desire to create is held in silence during the day, so that my literary moments can be focused and absolute.

I no longer have time to plan stories, but I have the time — 24 hours each day — for them to gestate. Vertical writing has even changed how I teach. I used to have my advanced fiction courses — high school students — write 150 pages during the academic year. I now opt for fewer, shorter stories, and the result are pieces that feel organic rather than rushed. My earlier writers were no less talented, but they were a bit overworked. We tried to sprint a marathon. We burned out. They gained endurance, but there are other paths toward that end.

A vertical writing life is no easy life, but it is deeper, more worthwhile. I feel like I have more ownership over what I create. I am no longer concerned with numbers; no more spreadsheets of magazines that I hope to conquer as if publishing was a territorial battle. Writing is the slowest of games, the most methodical of the arts. Its parts are nearly infinite; its wholes cannot be tricked into existence.

I have a constant worry that I need to get things right in life. Not in the sense of a literary career, which I know to be subjective and ephemeral, but in a wider, Catholic sense. Andre Dubus had regrets. His life was not made great by his great fiction. I recognize that we are not made in the molds of our influences. We receive parts of them, and it is our responsibility to follow or filter the rest.

Vertical writing is not easy. My stumbles continue. I have moments of frustration. I take blessings for granted. But I have long since traded ambition for slower concerns. It is very possible, very easy, to be owned by our goals. To be owned by our next book. To be owned by the feeling that we are competing with a world that outmatches us. Vertical writing — vertical living — has convinced me otherwise. It has reminded me why I began to write as a child: the joy of discovery, the surprise of creation, the power of imagination. When I used to write horizontally, I filled boxes with chicken-scratched, multiple drafts. I was concerned with speed and number, acceptances and rejections. Now I am concerned with depth and discovery, and the result is that I live with stories in a deeper way. They are more than tattooed on my skin; they have seeped inside my blood and into my soul. My fingers spend less time holding a pencil or hitting keys, but my stories have left the desk and driven my life.

Image Credit: Flickr/subarcticmike





Share this article

More from the Millions

16 Responses to “Gestation of Ideas: On Vertical Writing and Living”

  1. Matt R.
    at 12:30 pm on November 28, 2014

    This essay came along at the exact moment I needed to read it. Thank you, Nick.

  2. Amy Weldon
    at 11:11 am on November 29, 2014

    I taught “A Father’s Story” last week in my creative writing class and have been working on helping students imagine their characters more fully and “vertically,” although not (yet) using that term – I am sharing this essay with them and believe it will really help them (and me) in our ongoing work. Thanks!

  3. Zachary
    at 2:50 am on November 30, 2014

    Song writing has always been a must. Rivaling even the for food. I purposefully dehydrated myself for a better gage at my vocal range. Really stupid. Trying to get better in the wrong way is a waste. The rush and urgency time creates left me with pitiful works for many hours of labor. A few months ago I cleaned the slate. I only have one half finished song for 17 years of trying. I started as an ear 6 year old reading a rhyme for the first time. And I have been obsessed ever since. I’m taking your advice to write with depth rather than length. “Writing is the slowest of games” and my weakness is a lack of patience. So much so I skimmed your article at first but that changed with reading. Thank you for writing this lovely work of art.

    A distant student

  4. Moe Murph
    at 2:37 pm on November 30, 2014

    Loved the reference to Gerard Manley Hopkins, thank you. I sometimes imagine him, a frail and cultured man in a rough Irish neighborhood, in the cold and the damp, surrounded by the kids, but with his small gems slowly growing within him.

    Good luck to you Zachary! Please take care of your precious body and don’t dehydrate!

    Moe Murph

  5. The Best in Poetry: This Month's Top Ten Poetic Picks -
    at 9:28 am on December 4, 2014

    […] Author Andre Dubus didn’t go away to Puerto Rico to become productive (or unproductive, as the case may be). But he does have an approach that rather goes against the conventional writing wisdom of just keep writing, as Nick Ripatrazone explains in an article at The Millions: […]

  6. Kim
    at 12:36 pm on December 7, 2014

    This very much sound like how I tend to approach my writing. My question then, is how do you get your requisite practice time in? My writing skills are far from fully formed. But if I’m not coaxing an inspiration, I don’t even know where to start when writing, much less how to go about improving the craft. I feel like I have lot of aggregate work to do before my skills allow me to produce a single draft that is technically strong enough to support the story I’ve been gestating.

  7. Gillian
    at 5:55 pm on December 7, 2014

    Thank you for sharing this. It’s inspiring.

  8. Helen Matthews
    at 4:15 am on December 8, 2014

    That was interesting. That kind of writing seems to me to be more like poetry; when I write stories I want them to read like poems and I have always thought I might be mature enough to write well by the time I’m seventy so perhaps there is a long gestation happening. Thank you for the encouragement!

  9. The Art of Birthing Words: Thoughts on Vertical Writing | wind.horse
    at 3:04 pm on December 9, 2014

    […] writing, which is the subject of a recent post by Nick Ripatrazone (helped by the insights of Andre Dubus) draws many similarities to shamanism […]

  10. Vertical and Horizontal Writing: “Pantsing” and “Plotting” in Mathematical Terminology | kaleiyah-p
    at 1:36 am on December 12, 2014

    […] by a post I read on The Daily Post.  It’s actually a piece about a piece: a highlight of an article by Nick Ripatrazone of The Millions detailing the writing habits of short-story writer, Andre […]

  11. Reading Material, Vol. III | Writing Through the Fog
    at 12:04 am on December 19, 2014

    […] I can relate to the slow approach to work that Ventrella describes. (I’m even reminded of the vertical writing piece at The Millions that I highlighted last […]

  12. Excerpts From My Commonplace Book: On Not Writing | Toasted Cheese
    at 7:07 pm on December 19, 2014

    […] Vertical writing … values depth over breadth. Stories are written when they are ready to be written; they are not forced into existence by planning or excessive drafting. … vertical writing seeks to dig into the page, to value the building of character and authenticity over the telegraphing of plot. … Vertical writing is no less work, but it is better work, work at the right time. It requires patience in the willingness to wait for a story to feel ready to be written, as well as the attention and focus necessary to inhabit the story once gestated. —Nick Ripatrazone {+} […]

  13. Some things I read this month | The Remainder Table
    at 4:04 pm on January 5, 2015

    […] Ripatrazone, “Gestation of Ideas: On Vertical Writing and Living” (The […]

  14. Lorretta
    at 12:03 am on January 11, 2015

    I have been savoring this article for a few days now. I can’t get enough of this. I also tried to go at it horizontally and wait for all the right things to line up in my days. As a result, I’d end up frustrated with a lot of wasted words and time. You said it … I am a writer but that’s not my first commitment… and maybe not even my second. But it’s not my last either. This is very helpful information. thank you.

  15. Broken Beauty (and a Blogiversary) | Love in the Spaces
    at 2:09 pm on January 15, 2015

    […] I also have ancient drafts of fiction in the legal thriller genre–much of it inspired by my day job.  I don’t know if I’ll ever finish revising them, but rather than looking upon them as abandoned, I’ve decided to think of them as safely “gestating.” […]

  16. Short Saturday: On the Gestation of Ideas
    at 5:44 pm on January 31, 2015

    […] about the same things (only better), I stumbled upon this article from the Millions website—“Gestation of Ideas: On Vertical Writing and Living.” It’s by Nick Ripatrazone; I’ve quoted him here […]

Post a Response

Comments with unrelated links will be deleted. If you'd like to reach our readers, consider buying an advertisement instead.

Anonymous and pseudonymous comments that do not add to the conversation will be deleted at our discretion.